Saturday, March 18, 2017

The Hardest Job In The World.

I had to watch this 4 minute video as part of a lesson in school, and It really really touched me! The love + support + sacrifice my mom shows me day after day is truly humbling; especially knowing that she gives this same energy and time to all 5 of my siblings! AND she has been at it for nearly 30 years now. There's no one on this earth I cherish quite as much as I cherish my mother. 


I can't wait to be a mom some day and raise children of my own. The thought of it can be terrifying because of this crazy wicked world, but I'm honestly more excited then anything, and I think the reason my excitement trumps the fear is because of the perfect example I have in front of me. I hope to be even half the mother to my babies that my mom is to me. If I can even accomplish that much I know my kids will be SO blessed.


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A few days before I watched this video I read THIS post on nienie's blog where she shared this quote:

"A wonderful young mother recently wrote to me: “How is it that a human being can love a child so deeply that you willingly give up a major portion of your freedom for it? How can mortal love be so strong that you voluntarily subject yourself to responsibility, vulnerability, anxiety, and heartache and just keep coming back for more of the same? What kind of mortal love can make you feel, once you have a child, that your life is never, ever your own again? Maternal love has to be divine. There is no other explanation for it. What mothers do is an essential element of Christ’s work. Knowing that should be enough to tell us the impact of such love will range between unbearable and transcendent, over and over again, until with the safety and salvation of the very last child on earth, we can [then] say with Jesus, ‘[Father!] I have finished the work which thou gavest me to do.’11 ” - Elder Jeffrey R. Holland

All the feels. I truly believe being a mother is apart of my divine nature and purpose. I can't wait for the day that I get to hold sweet babies of my own fresh from heaven. 

Sunday, March 5, 2017

Who am I?


I'm in school right now majoring in Behavioral Science (with a emphasis in Family Studies). One of my required courses is FAMS-101G (Contemporary Families). Last week one of our assignments was titled "Who am I?". We had to write an article addressing different assigned topics, how that topic shaped who we are, and how that topic will influence your future family. The last topic in my essay was gender. How did gender effect my development?? As I wrote it I almost got emotionally thinking about my roles and what I feel is my divine nature and purpose as a woman. I decided to share what I wrote:

"Gender effected my development in a pretty typical way! I didn’t play football (or any sports involving a ball) growing up. I did gymnastics, dance, and cheerleading. I liked putting on fancy frilly dress ups with my sisters, brushing and braiding my barbies hair, and pretending to change my baby dolls diapers. All of the “games” I played and all of the activities I was involved in shaped me into the pink obsessed girly girl that I am today! I’ve grown into a young woman who loves to shop, do my make up, and curl my hair each morning. I have strong maternal instincts. I crave being a homemaker and mother. I like to sweep kitchen floors, make dinners, and clear all the dishes in the sink. These are such “motherly” duties in my head. I have these jobs and duties classified as “motherly” in my head because I watched my mom do all of them as I grew up! Contrary to the current and popular “trends” of the world, I do agree with these gender roles! I want my boys to grow up running around outside, playing in the dirt, and playing catch. I’m excited to drive them down to the ball field for practice and to fabreeze my car after them and their sweaty friends climb in for a ride home. I hope my daughters will want to help me bake and play in all of my old dance costumes. I love these typical and maybe “old fashioned” gender roles. I picture my husband working and being our bread winner and I picture me being the “House-Wife”. These gender roles never changed as I grew up. They remained very consistent in my own home! I plan to continue these roles under my own roof someday." 

I'm happy to be a girly girl, and I'm so glad my maternal instincts are so strong! I can't wait to be a mama some day.

Monday, February 27, 2017

California Dreaming.

As amazing as Disney always is.... I still have to give some credit to the rest of my California trip too. Because the whole thing was quite grand. 







And T.K. Burger while we were at it.

 We drove past this place while on the way to the beach and I pointed it out to all of them. It's been an old family fave for awhile. We use to come here when we'd visit Heather (back when she lived on Huntington Beach). It's just this little run down, hole in the wall, burger joint, but it's the yummiest! They decided they wanted to try it out and they all ended up approving of my suggestion. This place really is like a little hidden treasure! 


And while walking the streets of Huntington I can't ever help but admire all the perfect little homes. Too cute!! 

The first night in California (during the crazy storm) Blake introduced us to one of his favorite places: The Creamistry. It was the coolest. So fun to watch them make it all!


Seriously so clever. I've got to open one of these places and become famous and rich. 


Friday, February 24, 2017

Presidents Day Takes Disney.

Presidents Day weekend started early for me. On Thursday to be exact! That was the day that I loaded my things in the car and drove to the one and only.... DISNEY LAND. If you know me at all you know that there's no place I'd rather be. MY HEART BEATS FOR DISNEYLAND.

We actually stopped and stayed the night in St. George (at Aynsley's families house) Thursday night and then completed our drive to California early Friday morning. We spent the rest of Friday night hiding indoors at the Costa Mesa mall because it was storming bad.

We were so nervous the the next day (our day at Disney) would be just as stormy, cold, and rainy. To our luck, it was perfect outside; no rain and just a little chilly! God was on our side. THANK YOU BIG MAN UPSTAIRS. 

 
Gang right here. I drove down with Aynsley and her Lover (Fiance to be exact) Mitchell. We met up & stayed in California with Aynsley's older brother Blake (who's currently living in Cali). To be real, I had met Aynsley once before our trip and hadn't ever met Mitchell or Blake. So basically, I went on a road trip/vacation with some humans that I had never met. It was obviously nerve racking to an extent, but I can honestly say that it was one of the funnest trips I've been on yet! Everything was so comfortable and so chill. I kept forgetting that I had just met these fun people. I truly felt like I was a bunch of friends that I had known forever! We had a blast. If I could relive the trip I would in a heartbeat! 






^^^Ask me how us girls felt about getting wet on splash mountain... hahaha. I was prepared to NOT let that happen^^^

We got in the park early Saturday morning and immediately hit it hard. By the time the park closed we were pooped and so ready for bed (and to rest our legs). Disneyland is truly magical. Lucky for me, I'll be back in a short 3 weeks. 

Thursday, February 16, 2017

Happy Valentines Day.

As you all probably already know, Valentines Day IS MY JAM. To be more specific, the color pink is my jam. My whole Instagram feed was full of wedding pictures, PDA, snugly couples, and long sappy captions. I didn't mind one bit. I THRIVE OFF OF THIS STUFF. So much love for people in love... ya feel?! I wish every day was Valentines day. 
There's nothing I appreciate quite as much as going to the grocery store in January/February and seeing a whole aisle covered in pink, red, and purple. It's just the cutest. I'm weird. But it makes my girly girl heart real happy. (Especially Target. Their dollar section is killing it at this time of year. I mean when isn't it?! But it's on steroids during this holiday. Give me aawwwllll the glitter and heart shaped confetti).

We celebrated by making festive cookies for co-workers and friends and wearing all the pink and red.



One of my moms preschool students had brought Valentines donuts for snack time, there was an extra waiting for Maycie when she woke up from her nap and she was so excited. 

My older brother came home from work with a dozen roses for his wife, & balloons + fruity gum for his little girls. He was pissed when I started taking pictures to document the moment.... that's Tyler for ya haha.

I'll be honest, my heart melted when I saw my brother walk in the door with little gifts for all of his 'valentines'. The smile on his girls faces was pretty sweet too. Tyler is not a hopeless romantic; and he isn't super sentimental either. He's the kind of person that thinks Valentines day is a little bit dumb. He is the least festive person I know hahaha. But despite his feelings on the "pointless" holiday, he's always taking care of his girls. My older brother seems rough and tough on the outside, but I love seeing him turn into a marshmallow for his family. He's got a lot of quality's that I hope my future husband possesses! 


My mom made lots of homemade fudge for all of her 'valentines' (my family) and also left little gifts/a favorite 'treat' of ours on our pillows. 

Mama knows the way to my heart.

Just like every holiday, Valentines day makes me extra excited to be a mama someday. I'll be that mom making heart shaped pancakes topped with pink sprinkles for breakfast, dying my kids milk pink, serving boxes of truffles for dinner, working on homemade Valentines boxes for over a month, decorating the entire house with streamers and hearts, and probably putting way too much effort into homemade Valentines cards for my kids classes. Go big or go home man. Festivity is in my blood. 

Wednesday, February 15, 2017

The reasons.

Last Thursday cute Nie Nie Dialogue's (who we all know rocks my world) posted about the "reasons why she loved today." The first thing on the list was "It felt like spring and I opened a few windows". As I read it Friday morning I instant thought "I AGREE!!!!!" and decided I wanted to make my own blog post listing reasons I loved last week. 

1. It felt like spring. I didn't open any windows. But it felt like spring. And my heart was so happy. And my snap chat was full of videos of people playing at the park with their kids/the kids they nanny, people taking walks, hanging out outside without coats etc.
2. I finally saw La La Land. It was dreamy.
3. While on the topic of "band wagon" type of stuff, I started watching Stranger Things. Oh my essentially!! Why have I waited this long? 100% hooked.
4. HIGH Fitness. I don't think this is a real thing? Like I'm pretty sure someone recently made it up..... but it is the funnest. And it makes my heart so happy. You're essentially just having a dance party with a bunch of other women. Jessica teaches Wednesday nights at the American Fork VASA. Get there! She is the cutest and happiest.
5. I got a solid 30/30 on my math test *YESSS*
6. Sending my little brother off on his first date (PGHS sweethearts dance) he is the cutest.

Friday, February 10, 2017

One year.

One year ago (on the 4th to be exact) we celebrated one year of having our lex home. 
It really was the sweetest day. I remember February 3rd so perfectly. It felt like Christmas Eve night. We stayed up late painting posters, cleaning the house, and preparing to attack her with hugs. Such a fun day/moment to reminisce on!
 It's been such a great year of having our Lex back in the 801. Even though she'd go on another 18th month mission to serve our Lord in a heartbeat, we're keeping her here and never letting her leave again.
Watch a little video of that special day HERE (made by our favorite and cutest friend Indy Blue). It may or may not make you cry.... IDK, but what I do know is that it makes my family cry. WE LOVE OUR LEX <3